am i in an abusive relationship or wat is it really?

my boyfriend and i wer 2gether for 6yrs have a 1yr old we had a few fallen outs befor but a few days ago we fought i mean hit for hit kinda thing he was kinda under alcohol too, i checkd his phone an i notice he called this girl number who he claim he dont no so i get mad an slap da fuck out him with the phone for lien to me we started fighting i really have a trust issue with him, he hit me as if he didnt care i was a woman chocked and punched me he has slapped me befor but the way he hit me this time was like it was demons that had pozest him to freak out like that he bruised my thigh i love him and even tho i think we wer both wrong i dont no wat to do now because i feel like he doesnt even love me the way i love him anymore.i dont want him to hit me again cuz i think i mite killl him, now we havent spoken to each other in days even living in the same house and he's been going out an not sayin anything.... i need some advice please

Update: November 20, 2009.
lol yea we do. its not like he is hit me when ever he wants too i more likely provoked him but i was pissed becuz he lied too me